Enchantment Passing Through

I was talking with Rachel today about love, and life, and men, and sex-ed. I've been kind'a down the past few days, phyisically and emotionally. I think it's cuz I had the surgery a week ago and I have an infection of some sort (among other things) -- so I haven't been 100%.

So Rachel and I were chatting and she says:

Rachel: you need an aggieboy-type
Rachel: except one who's a little less lusty
Michael:
Michael: i think what i need is not to need
Rachel: how very Zen

As of late I just can't even imagine myself in a relationship. That's not to say that I'm opposed to having one ... just people have been on my nerves lately, and quite frankly, I just can't be bothered.

We went on to talk a little of how we grew up, both with divorced parents at a young age, and how it affected the way we viewed things. I have this rather "romanitic" view of it (as is summed up with the domain of this site -- "i dream you're with me, you hold me sweetly, and rock me gently to sleep." Used to be ideal. Now it's just kind'a bullshit. LOL

Rachel has this view of idealism ... that what she has now is perfectly fine. That relationships are best made in friends. And I think I have to agree. I'd honestly rather live the rest of my life with a friend than spend the next 9 months with someone I come to know and love, only to have them go away and be with someone else, rinse, repeat.

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